Hello, I want to make the right decision when it comes to my love for Ronald. I have gotten great insight from some of yall on how he feel about me and it helped alot. I'm just stuck on what to do, - question #6902

he not a bad person just in a situation that he can't just get out of yet. I'm trying to move past the betrayal of him not telling me that he is married. I found out on my own in July of 2025 out of 3 years of knowing him. I was devastated, we talked about a future together and him wanting me to be his wife. This is all talked about before me finding out he married. I forgave him after him explaining why he his this from me, he was very apologetic and hard on him self. He felt so bad for not telling me and I forgave him stuck by him. But sometimes I think I'm over the betrayal and it still hurt because had I known that he was married I would've have never talked to him. It was to late I was already deep in love and didn't want to walk away from him.That's why I'm so angry. How can I move past being betrayed like that, especially since I'm not ready to leave him I still love him? He was the only thing I have in my lie that made me happy and was there for me in my difficult times since I've known him. When we first met I was in grief I loss my nephew he was killed 3 years ago at the age of 27, he was there for me then a distraction from my pain. I have loss my dad last year, a favorite cousin last year and my sister in law in August 2025. I loss my job April of 2024 that I worked at for 27 years and I still don't have a job and applied for disability that I got turned down for 2 times and I'm on a appeal now hoping to get approved. My mobility isn't the same where I can't do much like I used too. I loss my truck to engine going out. I've loss a lot in 3 years time. He was there for me for everything especially with my sister in law passing in August he helped me so much. He was my only happiness I had ad now that spark is fading that's how it feels. Honestly I know you all say he love me, I'm trying to believe that because even though he still contact me its not lobd conversation and it's not Ike lovey dovet like I'm used to. It hurts because it feels like he love me the same. I'm trying not to think that I guess I miss how we used to be. Not sure what to do I'm loss, I'm trying to keep him in my life because I don't want to lose him, but I'm also angry and trying to move past the betrayal of not knowing he is married and him still hurting me retreating and distancing him self from me?